Oh, you too!

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Blank or just total useless rubbish rattling around.  Its so hard to stop, to clear completely. Distractions, a new noise, a different bird song, sudden bang or just me….watching, looking at myself trying to slow this crazy mind of mine.

Concentrate, try to remember, only hours ago you flowed and swirled with thoughts, ideas, brilliant plans and chatter oh yes so much happy chatter. Now……..blank.  Now when it matters, when theres time and quiet……just blank.

I can’t remember!

So many times as I look at them and say I have memory problems and they nod, sometimes smile kindly, pause……..then give me instructions or tell me something important.  Why don’t they listen and I mean listen.  I do not choose not to remember. They say ‘oh yes that happens to me all the time’ or ‘oh well, were all getting older, ha ha’.

NO you don’t know how it feels, what its like ALL the time.

Ive lost so many precious memories.  Just disappeared from my head or maybe locked away until just before my dying day, waiting to fleet across my mind.

I do no have dementia, I have not had a blow to the head or an illness known to cause such issues.  No label, you see ~ just me.

 

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Desperate ramblings because I'm desperate to learn how to do all this blog stuff and ramblings cos due to ill health I tend to ramble on even more than usual! I really hope you will glance, read and/or enjoy my words and I very much look forward to viewing yours in return. **UPDATE Feb '15** Thank you for all my new followers, gobsmacked tbh! Look forward to daily when possible, blogging, checking out all my favourites and meeting new fellow bloggers.
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4 Responses to Oh, you too!

  1. mike7sedona says:

    Don’t despair, you have company as that’s exactly how majority of folks feel after having lived a considerable length of time on earth enjoying and suffering the various phases of life!
    The best thing to do is keep yourself occupied learning new things besides doing the normal chores – learn a new language, join a dance class, go for long walks, meditate, etc.
    All these exercises keep the body and mind alert and pulsating, constantly supplying fresh blood to the brain which keeps the memory fresh and intact.

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