BUT I beat it again. Days and days it was tightening its grip because I was weak, vulnerable due to life suffocating me with things I could not face but I did not run, I walked oh so slowly and little by little I hit the negative thoughts with positivity and now the day after I am not sure how exactly but that is of little importance to me right now. The fact is I did.
More lovely to me as this area has so much importance personally from 37 years ago to now. Now, now that I live minutes from here, the place where ‘it’ all started, but thats another story!
Suffice to say, today I have mind fucked my mind (ha ha Sues) and its working. Right now its working ~ victory for now at least.