Sunday silence ~ crescendo!

crescendo

I woke to the tiny little wrens singing, no ‘people’ noise, I knew it was Sunday.  I made a cup of tea while my partner quietly caught up on desperately needed sleep. A light frost was present, the blue sky was merely dotted with puffy bright white clouds. Yes it was cold but somehow I did not feel it, I just sat and cleared my mind.  If this was meditation, it felt good.

Tomorrow I have to find so much strength, clarity, understanding and self worth. I may as well be heading for some big first appearance in front of thousands and yet I just have to face my employers and not accept their behaviour or at least I now need to have answers, dates, times, deadlines.  I have to be the one taking charge, asking questions, setting deadlines, something I have never done before.  Honestly it terrifies me but I must not show that.  I must not crumble.

I also need to ‘man up’ and get some proper help when it comes to at last dealing with the debt. I will find free professional help and move forward. Oh hell, just reading this back is scary but I MUST do it all.

You can do it Anne

yes you can

you are stronger than you think

it will be fine

your journey is at a crescendo

ride it with strength

(look forward to what comes after)

and then…….

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Desperate ramblings because I'm desperate to learn how to do all this blog stuff and ramblings cos due to ill health I tend to ramble on even more than usual! I really hope you will glance, read and/or enjoy my words and I very much look forward to viewing yours in return. **UPDATE Feb '15** Thank you for all my new followers, gobsmacked tbh! Look forward to daily when possible, blogging, checking out all my favourites and meeting new fellow bloggers.
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